It's the perfect time of day

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 06:12:21 GMT

My uncle died last night.
I only met him once.
I have a weird inward sadness about it.
Weird.

On a sidenote:

hi. college is KICKING MY ASS.
it's not so much a warm feeling than it is me just really really enjoying his company.
i don't know. maybe he makes me feel confortable.
i really don't know.
i wish there was a formula.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 08:37:24 GMT

today i shook kevin smith's hand. yeah i did.
i need a mental pick me up.
i don't know what's going on.
but right now, i am way down.

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 18:46:37 GMT

sometimes... i just wanna kill a bitch. DAMN. guys. i miss san francisco. i miss going to concerts. i miss, i dunno. i miss nor cal. so cal is the rad. but bitches get stitches no matter where you are. booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 01:31:33 GMT

this is me feeling slightly homesick =0\
i think i'll go cry a little bit
however, there are people back home...
that i just really never want to see ever again.

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 02:23:46 GMT

The new death cab is lovely. buy it on tuesday for the good of the country.
also, starbucks is SO INSANE. jcrizzle.
like brothers on hotel bed.... FOR SURE. beautiful beautiful song.
OH YEAH!
fuck yeah green day and your video of the year plus 6 other vmas. HELLZ YES.
this is my 90th time updating but the new death cab is SUCH a beautiful record. it flows so nicely. perfect chill music.

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 05:38:44 GMT

college....
heh.

i love you guys.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 05:08:51 GMT

Hi.
Happy Birthday Amanda!
Okay then.
Bye.

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 04:10:58 GMT

Los Angeles, I'm yours.

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 06:56:15 GMT

Hey,
I have a sore throat.
If it leads to strep throat, you better BELIEVE I will track down all you sick bastards and shoot you in the kneecaps.
That is all.

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 06:08:15 GMT

for the first time this summer I am officially bored....

1. What time is it? 10:53
2. Name as appears on birth certificate: Agatha Danuta Karmelita
3. Nickname(s): aggie
4. Parents names: anna and andy
5. Single or taken? single
6. Chinese zodiac: gemini/cancer
7. Hair color : black and blonde
8. Eye color: green
9. Height: 5' 2"
10. Shoe size: 8
11. Glasses or contacts or neither? neither
12. Braces? no
13. piercings/tattoos? ears are pierced
15. Current residence: R Dub but soon the city of angels
16. Siblings name and their ages: adam 25 and amanda 13

******HAVE YOU EVER******
17. Gone skinny dipping? nope
18. Been drunk? nope
20. Smoked a cigarette? yes
21. Skipped school?: Yes
22. Bungee jumped: nope
23. Kissed someone not related to you? Yes
25. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes
26. Kissed?: yes
27. TP'd someone's house? No
28. Won something? Yeah
29. Asked someone a question? yeah
30. Been rejected? nope
31. Been in love? sure
32. Been to a funeral? yes
33. Used a lighter? yes
34. Been on stage? yes
35. where? school plays

******FAVORITE******
36. Ice Cream flavor: vanilla i guess
39. Breakfast Cereal: cocoa pebbles
40. Number(s ): 12
41. Book(s): harry pottah
42. movies: damn i dunno
43. Candy: i dunno
45. Color: green and brown
46. vacation spot: anywhere but here
47. Sport to watch on tv: Baseball and football
48. Sport to play: football
49. Band/musician: green day
50. Letter: a
51. Fast food restaurant: in n out
52. Cartoon characters: daria
53. Holiday: christmas
54. Name for a boy: benvolio or Anton
55. Name for a girl: ophelia or lydia

******DO YOU PREFER******
56. chocolate or vanilla? Vanilla
57. Slow and sexy/erotic or fast and hard? chill
58. Long relationships or one night stands? i'm not sure.
59. dogs or cats? Both
60. Scary movies or comedies? comedies
61. Silver or gold? Silver
62. Croutons or bacon bits? croutons

******THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******
63. Doctor: meh.
64. Hedgehog : sonic
65. School: mmmmmmmmm
66. Grass: some people call it ganja
67. Cow: moooooooos.
68. Canada: good times.
69. Mouse: silly.
70. Hand: i like hands.

******THE PAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU******
71. Watched a movie? no
72. Talked on the phone? yes
73. Cried? no
74. Threw up? no
75. Drank a glass of water? yes
77. Read a book or magazine? yes
78. Watched tv? yes
79. Looked in the mirror? yes
80. Taken a shower? yes
81. Taken a picture? yes
82. Listened to music? yes
83. Hugged or kissed someone? yes
84. Done any house work?: yes
85. Told someone you loved them? yes

***DO YOU BELIEVE IN....******
86. Heaven? no
87. Love at first sight? infatuation....hm.
88. Aliens? yes
89. Everything always happens for a reason? yes
90. Freedom of speeech: yes
91. Love? yes
92. Magic: unicorns.

*******SOME RANDOM STUFF******
93. Last movie you saw in theatres? Wedding Crashers
94. Are you listening to music right now? yes
95. What color shirt are you wearing? blue
96. Do you like your middle name? it's pretty sweet
97. What kind of pants are you wearing? flood type deals.
98. What color is your backpack? yellow
99. Are you gonna send this to your crush? no
100. Do you like someone right now? yes
101. What time is right now?: 11:07
102. How much time did you waste? none!

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 00:49:56 GMT

Awwwww shit! my room mate is soooooooooooooooooooo adorable. I'm even more excited now then I was before.

I just really fucking love everything right now.
It could be the drugs...
Hahahahaha. I'm kidding...
Really, I am.

I leave in 13 days.... yayayayayayayayayayayay.

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 08:11:48 GMT

So I'm tearing everything off my walls one by one. I think I will also erase my user name off of this computer. I want to erase myself out of this house.

I know, it's not like I can't wait to move out or anything...

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 04:24:00 GMT

I think this is funny.

"But how can you tell if your teen is in trouble? Dr. Cunningham lists behavioral shifts as a warning sign that there might be something wrong: "If there is a dramatic change in your child's behavior, going from one extreme to the other...it's the number one indicator that there might be drug abuse. For example, a child who really used to care about her appearance no longer cares about her appearance anymore." Other signs Dr. Cunningham points out are changes in peer groups and physical indicators such as smelling of smoke or having red eyes."

Yeah, okay. In the summertime, personally, I don't care how I look because it's hot and it's summer for god's sake. Also, red eyes?!!? cellooooooooooo, maybe i went swimming. Anyway, if i wanted to hide my red eyes from my mom, i'd buy some damn visine. seriously, my 'elders' can be sooooooooo thick-headed.

PS: chex, love, feel better!

yesterday, i bought an air supply cd and a william shakespeare action figure. *blush*

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 05:34:59 GMT

Oh no....
I don't know if anyone remembers my super intense love for Jason Mraz, but, he's dropping a new cd rather soon... Mmmmmmmmm.
That is all. I am indeed excited.

also: i love vince vaughn.

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 04:03:39 GMT

Do you ever get the feeling that it's all just a waste of time?

Cue: The Disappearing Act for no less than three days.

I need a friend cleansing.

I sometimes feel that I hate you.

I'd say sorry, but I'd be lying.

Oh well.

I'd talk about Orientation and such, but I'd rather leave it to your imagination.

Now, back to Harry Pottah.

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 22:19:13 GMT

I sometimes feel like I would like to dig my eyes out with a ~~spoon~~ mellon baller. It is almost as if that is what ~~spoons~~ mellon ballers are meant to do. I will admot that I was, in fact, disappointed, however, I will never retaliate because doing something like that to a friend is not how I roll, so, I'm over it. The length of my nails cannot be healthy. I think I'll get a manicure, pedicure and my eyebrows done before I go to LA. I think I'e also decided that I'm letting my hair grow out blonde!!! Yep, I'm letting it grow out. My roots are pretty long, and the blonde is growing in so light, and for some reason, I like it a lot. I think I may for brunette or something later. We'll see. I got my hair cut like a while ago, and I LOVE IT. Currently, this is what is on my mind.

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 22:17:20 GMT

So far, summer movie wise I have seen:
Batman Begins - it was flipping sweet.
Bewitched - I thought it was absolutely lovely.
Mr. and Mrs. Smith - This movie was great. Brad and Angelina do work quite well together.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 07:54:14 GMT

I'm so far gone
I'm running on empty
I'm so far gone now,
Do you wanna take me on?

I may, in fact, be one of those poeple with a song on their voicemail... =0\

Uh, on the walk home from work I was having a texture orgasm and touched everything. It was lovely.

Um, deflower?

I wish I went to Bane last night; however, I had a really amazing night.

I like when I walk home from work, sit down, and let all my leg muscles spasm. It's a weird sort of stress reliever.

I want alfred.

Mmm.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 20:45:32 GMT

University of Spoiled Children?
I'm gonna be so fucking out of place =0\

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 00:54:52 GMT

I hope this means the worst is over.
I'm sorry if I yell at you.
I pretty much hate.
That's all there is to it.
I kind of had a breakdown.
I still don't say what I really think to my brother or mom.
So, like the fucked up weirdo I've become, I just scream.
Literally. I just put my hand over my mouth and scream.
It's pretty relaxing actually.
Counting down the hours.

My mom finally said she was sorry.
She also said she was going to make it up to me.
I told her I doubted it.
I will never turn 18 again.
But she still has another chance to make it right with my sister.
Life's a bitch and then you die...
My brother, being the supportive person he is, told me I should just get over it because I will have a million other shitty weekends. Instead of trying to explaining that no weekend will EVER be as in important as this weekend, I walked outside and screamed. I then returned to my room and stopped talking to him. I don't need to take his shit anymore, so I just won't talk to him. He's worthless. If I wasn't such a broke fool, I'd give him back his HUGE 50 dollars he gave me. Fucking cheap ass loser. He is never getting a gift from me ever again. I'll write him a check for the 2 grand IF THAT that he spent on my shitty ass lexus and tell him to shove his self righteous bullshit up his ass. ah yes. some day. SOME DAY I hope karma comes back around and rewards me.

I cry a lot. I'll just be sitting and start crying. I'm sorry if it brings you down. There is nothing I can do.

seriously. what the fuck did i EVER do to deserve such shit.

its my birthday

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 04:18:28 GMT

11:07 AM: it's been my birthday for 11 hours. let's see how many more hours pass before my mom even LOOKS at me.

2:47 PM: so today pretty much sucks. i would like to announce that i will NEVER stay up until midnight to call anyone on their birthday ever again. thanks to the like seven people that said happy birthday to me and i'm sorry if i started crying. i'm just not up to celebrating. no thanks to everyone for not coming to see me. i mean it's just my nineteenth birthday right? nothing special. my mom still hasnt talked to me. on the plus side i've spent a lot of time cleaning my room and its getting pretty clean. i'm also getting rid of a bunch of lame shit i don't want. so if you're a freeloading asshole, which i'm sure you are, please come to my house and go through my boxes and take my stuff. thanks to kira and lizzy for bringing me a cake yesterday. thanks to anna and cort knee for saying happy birthday to me at midnight at the rilo kiley show. and thanks to alexia for sending flowers, ballons and a gift eventhough she is MILES away, she is so fucking great. the last year has been the biggest piece of shit of my life and considering today, this next year doesn't look much fucking better. and here i ACTUALLY thought that my birthday could not be worse than last year, apparently i thought far too soon. my mom has successfully ruined my birthday. i hope she's proud. she didn't even say congratulations to me. i never thought i hated my mom but i'm pretty sure i do now. and i'd explain how shes become the epitome of all i hate in human beings but discussing it only makes me cry. and i dont knwo if i have any tears left. i hope you have a beautiful fucking sunday afternoon.

maybe if something amazing happens i'll update again later.

P.S. if you ever considered yourself my friend and you haven't said happy birthday to me today, i hope you fucking die because nothing you could EVER do will make me even CONSIDER forgiving you.

5:43 PM: I have returned from hiding. I went into hiding about 3 hours ago. Chex found me. It was nice to talk to him. I just walked in the door and my mom said happy birthday... I walked into m room picked up the flowers alexia sent and proceeded to ask my mom what the fuck her problem is. and she started crying like the little bitch she is saying that she always ruins everything for everyone. well fuck yeah mom. you do. otherwise i wouldnt have to stand here and ask you what the fuck your problem is.

I am also never throwing a suprise birthday for anyone EVER AGAIN and JESUS CHRIST if you EVER fucking called me your best friend and didn't say happy birthday to me today FUCK YOU GOD DAMMIT FUCK YOU

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 01:12:44 GMT

i hate today.

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 14:40:27 GMT

Fuck yeah MJ, fuck yeah.

I stood by him.

YEAH I DID.

what now bitches.

PS. I also cut my hair. I dunno about it. I dunno at all.

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 02:17:24 GMT

I know it's going to be my 19 birthday and like WOW i'm gonna be 19... but I'm not feeling it man. I'm totally not feeling it. I mean, I don't have anything planned. oh well. i could fully throw an amazing party. I have no desire, no motivation. birthdays are overrated.

ps. please please please, if you really must 'get' me something please only give me money. I'm a bitter bitter bitter human being and I'm afraid I would not appreciate the 'hard work' put into finding me a gift. its not impersonal if its what I ask for. the end.

so who's ready to move away from home? I don't think I've been more ready for anything in my entire life.

who's ready to move away from fascist parents? yeah, me too.

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 04:22:22 GMT

If you keep talking like a bitch, I'm gonna slap you like a bitch.
Oh Quentin and your curt dialogue.

It's the little things. It really really is